Im so disturbed and paranoid these days...im not myself now...i used to laugh...i used to smile freely..but now i don't feel like doing those actions anymore...i feel hurt...i feel very vulnerable...i feel fragile...i feel like i can breakdown anytime soon.. i feel so much hate coming out from my heart...i swear i could die of drowning in my tears..i don't feel needed...i don't feel wanted...i don't feel appreciated...i feel so fake...where is *ME? where is my true self? where am i? i need it back...i want to do something...i have this urge...i have this feeling...i feel pathetic...is crying all i can do?? is being moony all i can do?? is waiting for answers all i can do?? i feel lost in myself...there's an alien in me...who are you? who am i? i lay down in the edge...i see my whole life in rewind...i falling...im drowning..i hear myself calling...is it better or is it worse...always sitting in reverse..it's just like we are going backwards..i know where i want this to go..tried to go fast...but go slow..i don't wanna crash...
